Saturday 7 February 2015

LOVE

                                                         LOVE

Yeah Yeah, i know what you all might be thinking at this moment- "The drama queen is back." Well it's the Valentine week and it has inspired me a littile but trust me, i've wanted to write about this a long time back but i also wanted to wait for the correct moment. And well it's just the perfect time to talk about LOVE. The first person who came to your mind after reading this is your TRUE LOVE. Not all of us might be lucky to have that person in our life who we consider our soulmate. But sometimes the timing is not right, sometimes we fall for the wrong kinda person, a person who awakens love inside us but doesn't really love us anyway. Some people are meant to fall in love with each other but not meant to be together. Does that mean that we are not entitled to love? Well, no it doesn't. All we have to do is be patient and wait for our moment, for that right person. We need to give life a chance because life is nothing but a basket full of surprising moments.
I admit after the heartbreaks I was afraid to love. I thought that i was cursed or was just unlucky whenever i saw beautiful couples around. I won't lie that i didn't cry or mourn. I did. Maybe way more anyone could ever imagine looking at my smile and the chirpy laughter. It was a constant battle. A war between remembering and forgetting. There were days when i would feel okay, but at times within a day, there was a roller-coaster of feelings. Finally i accepted my condition. Each morning it was a struggle to wake up. With time i healed. But i never wanted the world to know. If one thing i've learnt in life is that nobody actually cares about your sorrow except for your beloved ones, your family and your true friends. Rest of the world is just looking for an excuse to mock you or gossip about you. My problem is that i get attached way too easily. I expect much of people because i give my 100% to them and in my head it's only logical that i will get atleast something back. But i end up getting hurt in the process. I kept trying to make it go away but how do you kill a feeling? Lucky for me that i realised that i deserved better than that. I deserved a man who would move mountains for me if he had to.
People try to find logic in love. But love defies all the logic. Love is pure, eternal, a blessing and a curse at the same time. Love is meant to be an adventure. Nobody is ever too young or too old to fall in love. Love can make you build immortal. There are all kinds of love in this world but never the same love twice. Love is a smoke made with the fume of sighs. The Holy Bible says "Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant"
The problem with love these days is that society has taught us to stare at people with their eyes rather than their souls. This is where we make mistake. True love is not about the hugs and kisses, the "I love you's" or the "I miss you's". Its about the chills that hit every part of your body when you think about them. You need to fall in love with yourself first before falling in love with someone else. So like whomever and whatever you want and be damn proud of it. Set your life on fire. Seek those who fan your flames. Don't give up on love. Don't be afraid to fall in love. Find the right person. Above all of this make a promise that if you love, you'll love truly and deeply. For the ones who have loved and lost, give love another chance. Don't blame love for the pain you've suffered. Blame the timing and the wrong person. Everyone deserves to love and be loved. As for me i'm looking for my REAL LOVE. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't-live-without each other LOVE. xoxo!!!!!!!

Monday 10 November 2014

                                           THE UNLUCKY GIRL

She lay in her bedroom with doors closed just like the closed door of her heart. As she looked across the window, all she could see was just sadness and loneliness. She realized that once again her heart was torn and left to bleed, once again she was rejected by the love of her life, once again she has to go through that deep sorrow of broken heart. Yes, this pain was a part of her entire life. She had loved and then the guy had torn her apart by leaving her. After her first breakup she thought that her life had no meaning left. So she wanted to end it but every time she tried to kill herself she realized that her suicide would tear her family specially her dad; who had always given her happiness the priority. She was her dad's princess but she wanted to be someone's queen. And when that dream fell apart, she couldn't undergo that pain. Then she made a promise to herself that she would never fell in love again. She wanted to let loose and started living a wild and fearless life. That was her death and the birth of VERONICA. Everyone started calling her that. She started partying hard. Alcohol became her only true soul mate. Now the love in her heart was filled with booze. She became an addict. It started out with her drinking alone in her flat to making new friends in the gym. Slowly and steadily she started drinking with anyone who asked her out for drinks. She started going to Delhi every month not only to meet her friends, not only to shop but because she wanted to dance her sorrow out. She danced insanely, drank insanely and wanted this to be her life. But every time she returned from Delhi, she felt more lonely. A girl who was once full of attitude and never used to talk to guys who were strangers started drinking and partying with anyone trying to kill her own legacy and standard. She did this in the hope of ruining herself because she realized she was not a coward. But she was scared of her loneliness; her broken heart and believed that she'll never be able to love again. But just when she enjoyed being VERONICA, she met a guy partying one fine day. At first she didn't realize he'll become so important to her. They started chatting, hanging out. Something inside her changed again. She tried hard not to fall in love again but this guy was different from the rest of the guys. And then she made the mistake again. She fell in love with him. He changed her. He killed VERONICA and brought her back to life. She was happy from inside after what felt like ice age. It was young and sweet love. She started flying in the sky; this was the impact he had on her. But unfortunately, her happiness like always was just for a short while. He was leaving her because his family wanted him to get married to some girl of their choice and he couldn't say no to them. She wanted him to fight for their love but he refused. She realized that this guy would never be able to take a stand in his life for her. She wanted to hate him thinking that what a coward he was. But she couldn't hate him. She was left alone again to grieve and mourn. She realized she is that lucky person who has been cursed. Her faith in romantic stories started fading. She wanted to kill herself for being stupid the second time. But she thought that maybe she's cursed for life. Maybe she can't be with the love of her life ever. Still she has to live because she was one hell of a STRONG GIRL who had gone through a lot and who never backed down. She however was proud of one thing that she was stronger and fearless then any guy she ever met and that there was no guy who could compete her in any sense.